Lo these many years ago, American History was one of my special interests. My undergrad degree was in it (well, not technically, but like 90% of my classes--including Historical Methods and stuff like that--focused on US history). I still love it, but I'm not focused enough on it to call it a special interest any more.
But you guys, there is SO MUCH interesting stuff about early American history that, if it were taught properly, would REALLY change peoples' perspectives on the "brave, gallant, noble" men of the Confederacy. And I'm not talking just the racism stuff, like 90% of them were whiny pissbabies and THAT is why the Civil War even existed in the first place. I shit you not. The modern Conservative Christian persecution complex has NOTHING on the antebellum Southern elite. Sure, a lot of those guys were personally brave in battle. But on a political or moral level, they were ... most five-year-olds are more mature. (I'm simplifying things a lot here and painting with a really broad brush, but it's not inaccurate.)
This meta is going to take as read that slavery=EVIL and that there is no such thing as a "good" slaveowner and that racism is horribly, horribly evil and nothing good can ever come of it and white supremacy twists and mutilates everything good it comes in contact with. You all know that, or you should, and you can find lots of places talking about that with a quick google search. Also, Blacks and poor Whites had vibrant cultures during this time period that I'm going to largely ignore because while all that is awesome, I want you to truly understand ALL the reasons why it's stupid and pathetic to glamorize the Southern elite, which means focusing on them. The South was (and is!) REALLY AWFUL AND SCREWED UP and racism is part of that but not the only part. But we will start a bit by talking about racism, because it's the root of so much other evil.
I'm sure you've heard that "race is a social construct!" Let's look at how that construct got constructed, shall we?( How Black And White People Came To Be )( Economic Differences And Political Boondoggles, or, How The South Learns That Temper Tantrums Are A Viable Political tool. )( The South's Persecution Complex vs. the North's Manifest Destiny )( Taking Their Marbles And Going Home, Then They'll Be Sorry: Civil War Edition )( More Delusions Of Grandeur: The Whole Lost Cause Romantic Bullshit )
And I look at this and shake my head at the triumph of propaganda over reality, and also at the fact that ANYBODY, even a racist, could POSSIBLY think that those idiotic inbred delusional cretinous whiny pissbabies were cool or worthy of adoration.
In these dark times, what can we do that will have the most positive impact?
Someone on my flist posted about feeling like they're not doing enough. But they were speaking with family and friends and trying to understand their views.
I actually think this is the MOST IMPORTANT THING that we can do.
It's sometimes the hardest thing to do, but I strongly believe it's the one thing that will have the most impact in the long run.
I have found that being courageous and speaking up when you are around relatives and loved ones who make racist, sexist, fear-driven comments - creating a dialogue about the issue, reasoning with them, challenging them, correcting inaccurate beliefs, etc. - that's the key.
Do not sit silently by and let their way of thinking go unchecked.
Sure, it's the easier thing to excuse it, or to not want to make a scene at a family gathering. It's safer and more comfortable to reblog your opinions in a virtual environment of strangers, but it will never make as much impact as confronting your own near and dear ones, and trying to effect change from the home, you know?
I now call out my father's sexist thinking, my mother's racial prejudices, my friends' sometimes off-colour, gossipy comments. If you don't do it, who will? You will be amazed how your intolerance of this sort of thing can make them think twice about what comes out of their mouths. Maybe even question their own bigotry and open their eyes to another way of thinking.
Frelling hells. Gorramit.
When I came to the east coast, the difference in palpable racism was amazing. Now, I'm not saying that it didn't exist, but the level compared to growing up in the south was amazing.
And then, against my expectations (but not my support), Obama was elected. People I thought would never vote for him did, including members of my family. It was 8 years of "wow, maybe the world really has grown up".
And then November 2016 happened, and it's been like everything I remember about my childhood, though spoken of mostly quietly then, has come out in 3D, dolby surround sound.
Sunday and Monday's remarks by Not My President (NMP) were bad enough. Then came Tuesday. How any decent person in his administration can remain after that, I don't know. I mean yes, there can be an argument made about how they need to stay to protect the country and the world from him, but at the same time, they are allowing him to function.
And the GOP in Congress. I hope they realize that words and statements are not enough.
On top of this, stray remarks by me keep drawing people in to political discussions. My respect for many of my coworkers as a result has plummeted. I guess I shouldn't be surprised that most of them are white, older men.
Yesterday kind of took the cherry on this. I was complaining to a colleague that my vacation was less than restful due to the news and then a few attempts to explain the whole situation to a few curious Canadians. Somehow, got involved in discussion with older freelancer -- in which I was purposely trying to not really get into politics -- that he basically set it up as a criticism of the media and lectured me on how I had to realize that majority of news sources were biased, and that they had to take NMP's words out of context for their business model to succeed - but don't get him wrong, Fox News was just as bad on the other side, and basically all the political divisions in our country were the fault of journalists.
Just WTF??? Yes, dude, I learned at the age of 12 that everything news based has a biased and there's rarely a medium through which you can get just the facts. But seriously, nothing in the last 4 days requires much of bias to report it.
I would say that I'm done with humanity, but always at the darkest times there are those around us that step up and lead the way. From the counterprotestors protecting each others, the veteran who stood guard at the Chartlosville synagogue, those pulling down statues, and communities pulling together to make sure Heather Heyer's memorial occurs unmolested, the evil messages of the right are being called out.
I bought a vid at the Vividcon Auction, from the lovely and talented grammarwoman
! My music tastes are eclectic and nonstandard (basically, everything BUT modern popular pop/rock and modern country--it's not that I don't like them, it's that it all tends to blend together and sound the same), and I don't vid, which means there are a lot of songs that I think would make AWESOME fanvids that I know nobody will ever make, sigh. (Okay, some of them might get made. I'm actually surprised that nobody's done a Spock vid to The Logical Song by Supertramp, or a Goa'uld vid to Jeepers Creepers by Louis Armstrong. Others ... I might think a werewolf vid to the old Big Band classic "Moonlight Becomes You So" would be hilarious, but I doubt anybody else would think it was funny enough to spend the time and effort to make, particularly given that it's a slow song and most vids are done to upbeat/fast songs.)
Anyway, I have a number vid ideas that will never get made if I don't pay someone else to do it, and so I'm always on the lookout for vid auctions featuring vidders offering those sources that I think would do a creditable job with the idea. Which is how I bidded on (and ended up winning) grammarwoman
's services to make a Star Wars fanvid to that old American Civil War hit, "That's What's the Matter." And she did a really great job, and the vid is SO FUNNY. You have to go see.Title:
That's What's the MatterSource:
Star Wars movies (Rogue One, Episodes IV-VII)Music:
"That's What's the Matter", Stephen FosterVid Download Link: 183 MB m4v file at Sendspace
(If you'd like it in a different format, let me know.)AO3 link
The Empire would have gotten away with it, too, if it hadn't been for those meddling Rebels and incompetent Imperial officers.
Every year, Uncanny Magazine
does a special "Destroy Science Fiction!" issue. (Women Destroy Science Fiction! Queers Destroy Science Fiction! People of Color Destroy Science Fiction!") This year, it's "Disabled People Destroy Science Fiction!"
The issue itself isn't out yet, but many of the personal essays about disability and science fiction are available for free on the Kickstarter page
. They're all good, and you should totally check them out. Here are some of my faves:
K.C. Alexander, We Are Not Your Backstories
Science fiction shapes generations—how we think, the way we act. It influences the careers we choose and our thirst for knowledge. It cautions against the worst of our impulses, and quietly teaches us empathy. Without knowing it, we are slowly acclimated to people and beliefs that live outside our rigid monocultures.
A.T. Greenblatt, The Stories We Find Ourselves In
So, I'll let you in on a secret, the thing I've learned about having a life-long disability, the thing that lots of stories never quite grasp: The real trick, the true solution to a disability, is to find a balance between your abilities and your goals.
Michael Merriam, We Are Not Daredevil. Except When We Are Daredevil
I live in this world. I can't toss my white cane aside when I need to spring into action: the cane goes with me everywhere. I travel around my city on public transportation. My other senses are not supernaturally sharper because I am blind. I simply pay better attention to those other senses. It's a learned skill. I live within my blindness every day, and I want to read about fictional characters who also live with and within their blindness.
Marissa Lingen, Malfunctioning Space Stations
I have a major balance disorder. When I am awake and able to use all my senses, I can reason out the vertical. If you make me close my eyes, I can still get it to within about five degrees of the correct answer if I'm sitting still on a firm surface. If I’ve got a squishy surface, motion, or other things confusing my senses, doubtful. Asleep? All bets are off. I literally do not know which way is up.
Since I have read and written science fiction for decades, what my sleeping brain knows to do with this much disorientation is to process it into a malfunctioning space station. And so I dream. Occasionally my dreams veer into carnival rides, roller coasters, giant swooping swings. But that is someone else's genre. This is mine.
H. Ace Ratcliff, Nihil de Nobis, Sine Nobis
I narrowly avoided the temptation to throw my Kindle and watch the book shatter into a million plastic pieces. If it had been a printed paperback, I’m positive I would be able to show you the dent in the wall. “For the record,” I tweeted out to the hashtags The Expanse was using, “you can be a fucking Valkyrie in a goddamn wheelchair.” I can assure you that any human with the wherewithal, sheer willpower, and pain tolerance to put her skeleton back into place on an hourly basis absolutely deserves a place in any mythological pantheon.
Day Al-Mohamed, The Stories We Tell and the Amazon Experiment
As an example, I once asked a room full of authors what their response would be if I asked them to make the protagonist in their current Work-in-Progress a woman – most nodded, yesses were heard around the room. Then I asked if they could make their character a person of color – again, nods around the room. Then I asked if they would make the character disabled – silence. The discomfort was palpable. In theory diversity and disability was great to include in fiction but when it came to implementation, they couldn’t easily connect disability with their protagonist. They had trouble adjusting to the practical reality of disability existing outside of the boxes they knew. This is why 134 stories on Amazon could be broken down into five story categories.
Ada Hoffman, Everything Is True: A Non-Neurotypical Experience with Fiction
When I read #ownvoices autistic characters, I often think the authors have had that same feeling. Many of these characters have devoted family, friends, romantic partners, even when the world at large is awful to them. Most of them first have to overcome a broken relationship with themselves. To learn to believe that they're worthy as they are.
With autistic characters written by NT authors, it often feels like everyone is tired of their shit from the start.
You don't have to be tough. People sometimes say things like, "If you can be discouraged from writing, you should be," and use that as a way to justify being unkind to people who are tender. I don't think it's meant as a cudgel against disabled people specifically, but it can function as one. If you doubt your abilities, if you are sometimes crushed, if you feel like an impostor—that's fine. It's normal. If only tough people wrote stories, then we'd only have their perspectives, and we would lose all the things other people—you—have to offer.
Haddayr Copley-Woods, Move Like You're From Thra, My People
I was glad I didn’t have this unfortunate internalized disableism stilling my movements, but I didn’t know why I’d found it so easy to make the switch until I sat down with my little boys to watch The Dark Crystal, which I hadn’t watched in decades.
I didn’t know. It took my breath away. The reason why I am fine with moving like this, the reason I am fine with people staring and why I love myself this way, is because of The Dark Crystal.
The issue is more than fully funded, right now they're adding content left and right as more people pledge, and if they get to $45k (they're at $39,425 with 9 days left to go) they'll do a hardcopy of it for supporters pledging $50 or more.
14/8/2017 wordcount: 1,574
1.3k was on Kylux RBB and 224 put on a Stony Trumps Hate fill. Would've pressed to force work on my fandom5k continuation, but had to take benadryl to keep my eyeballs in their sockets and that basically killed me for the day. Still managed to get the work done before it knocked me on my ass, though, so hurrah for being up really fucking early because of drama going on outside, I guess?
The fandom5k words is supposed to be my carrot-and-stick. If I get at least a small chunk done on each of my commitment areas-- which right now is the Kylux RBB and the first of my STH fills-- then I will allow myself to put as much work as I can on a project that has no expectations or anxiety attached to it. *pets that story* Yes, yessssss. So good to me, yesss.
From a narrative standpoint, Telltale's The Walking Dead is a lazyass story full of contrived devices that entirely rely on ~~zombies to bring on the drama. I'm not going to give a shit about your characters if the only personal point you give before they die is that they're scared, and then after they're gone you reveal that oh, one of the survivors ~liked~ them. Big whoop, that's been done to death before in everything from soap operas to war dramas you fuckheads.
I'll finish the game because I give a shit about my perfect game score on Steam, but that's the only reason. It's gonna be like pulling teeth, and though my hatred of the comic has died down over the years, it's certainly being rekindled now.
Zuul was making noises last night that he needed to go to the bathroom, so I walked him on a leash out into the pitch so he'd have a chance to not fuck up my kitchen floor. Of course what he really wanted to do was chase desert frogs that are popping up due to all the rain.
Took him back inside after twenty minutes of dicking around, and Tidbit lost her shit. I think she thought I'd taken him away forever or something, because for the rest of the night she placed herself bodily between myself and him at all angles, and if I tried to touch him she'd get up and knock my hand away. HE'S HER DOGGO, NO TOUCHY.
This shit isn't funny, except how it totally is :3
- Through Time and Space
I just saw my mom off at the airport. Right now she's on her way to London - 11 hour flight. But she's so happy and excited to visit her brother. She loves travelling abroad, and she also loves all that girly stuff (that I'm not too into). I indulged in her trying on every single item from her closet, and spent time helping her choose and put together outfits for her trip. I could see the years dropping from her face as she started packing her suitcase, getting her hair done, nails etc. It feels so good to see her looking ten years younger and youthfully enthusiastic, throwing off the ever-present stress of daily living. Makes it worth every penny. <3
- Fanart Rec
For my Captain America/Wonder Woman fanart rec at fanart_recs, I ended up going with the Captain America and Wonder Woman against nazi army by hamletroman out of all the choices. Thought it was wonderfully (and sadly) apt, especially with the goings on of this week.
- Drawing: Quantity vs. Quality
Weekly Challenges at drawesome are coming along nicely. I'm trying to develop a routine of taking an hour or so for drawing over the weekend, the same way I might use an hour for relaxing watching tv. The trick though is to exercise my creativity, but not stress too much over the results. Not as easy as it sounds. Being a perfectionist, I'm having to undo YEARS of firm believe in outputting something at 100% effort or not at all. I've come to realise though, that with art, quantity might actually be the key to eventual quality. And sometimes that quality isn't even the point of art. :b
Case in point, for last week's challenge, I did a simple torso study (Teen Wolf, Derek Hale, G) and enjoyed it immensely, even while knowing there were a lot of things I would go over and correct or change given the chance. But it was incredibly satisfying, just spending time messing around with charcoal, which I haven't done in ages, and actually getting something out on paper.
Looking back at 2016, I *CANNOT* fathom how I went almost a whole entire year without producing any fanart/art. I remember at the time it seemed like such an insurmountable task to get going. I have no idea why I was waiting for some sort of perfect moment or for Inspiration To Strike. Setting goals and "homework" is in no way romantic, but surprisingly it's been working wonders for my artistic creativity. :)
This week's challenge is a Word Prompt: HEAT. I'm thinking fire, flames, anger, passion maybe? We'll see how that one goes...
Was feeling miserable and snarly and tired so made the It Takes a Village to Make a Salad supper
again, and it was so low-stress and pretty damn yummy. White beans, salmon, a little cottage cheese for creaminess, chilled peas, diced green bell pepper, sliced cucumbers, sliced chilled hard-boiled eggs, garnished with Parmesan, pesto, mustard, salt, pepper. END OF HEAT WAVE/SMOKE HURRAH( Phone pic in crappy light )
Some icons made for iconthat
, for Department S
generally, and others spotted lurking on the hard-drive, including Doctor Who
(1968) & The Forsyte Saga
. I like to save up and post in big sets, but that only means some things never get posted!
( It serves him right after all; he should manage his affairs better )
Credits: textures by larmay, tiger_tyger & imemime_art. The usual rules apply - want, take, use, credit. Please no hotlinking.
- Tags: 1960s, 1970s, avengers (uk), department s, doctor who, doomwatch, dracula, emma peel, forsyte saga, icons, iconthat, james maxwell, joanna lumley, rosemary nicols, sapphire, sapphire and steel, sleepy hollow, suzanne neve
Finished my artwork for The Defenders Big Bang
) just in the nick of time, late last night, and published it on AO3 this morning. I selected 221Browncoat
to collaborate with as soon as I saw the crossover in the summary. You guys know how much I love mash-ups. :D
Here's her finished fic:Daredevil Issue #4: The Man Without Fear Joins the Avengers!
Gen | Daredevil/Avengers crossover | Rated Teen | 14401 words
And here's my artwork (at AO3), which is based on the above fic:Title: Fan Art - Aww, Daredevil no
by gossFandom: Daredevil (TV)
, Hawkeye (Comics)
, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)Rating:
Matt Murdock, Tony Stark, Clint Barton, Kate Bishop, Steve RogersNotes for Artwork #1:
The first one is a digital drawing of Matt Murdock. I thought it would be cool to draw the Daredevil tv show character in the style of Matt Fraction and David Aja's Hawkeye comics. Trying to pare down a character's features to just a couple broad marker strokes is *way* harder than expected.Notes for Artwork #2 and #3:
I liked how the first one turned out, and since the Daredevil/Avengers fic featured characters from Fraction's Hawkeye, I decided to try my hand at emulating a comicbook style page based on scenes from the fic, resulting in the two comicbook pages below. The visuals in about half of the images were referenced from Fraction's Hawkeye comic, and then modified to suit the story, and the other half are adapted from Daredevil and Avengers screencaps, and pics of Hell's Kitchen. They were all drawn with a black marker, and then scanned, with the colour and text added digitally.
Thanks to 221Browncoat
for working with me on this Big Bang. I had a lot of fun with our collaboration. :D
I couldn't sleep and the haze from the wildfires feels like it's smoking my head from the inside out so naturellement I wrote some fic.And the shame was on the other side
(3154 words) by actonbell
Fandom: Atomic Blonde (2017)
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Lorraine Broughton/Delphine Lasalle
Characters: Lorraine Broughton, Delphine Lasalle
Additional Tags: Fix-It, Kissing, Past Violence, New York City, way too many literary references, Fake Character Death, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Delphine lives
If it's a game she'll play, like the chessmen. If it's a trick she'll be fooled. If it's a trap she'll close her eyes, open her mouth and swallow the bait. Just to keep Delphine standing here. Just to see her.
In the event of me seemingly getting worse at writing birthday ficlets, instead of better, I have for the past couple of years, taken the Unconventionalcourtship Generator and had a flash-fic writing session with it, tackling any prompts where I felt able to write both characters for john_amend_all
's birthday. The end of June was particularly bad, so here it is, only slightly delayed.
One of the results that came up was clearly something I thought would amuse astrogirl2
, who also had a birthday around the same time, so, I'm calling that a belated present also. Plus some bonus summaries I failed at writing. (The whole package is like a bundle of those tacky plasticky things you get at the seaside, but I had fun.) I did this on different days, before and during my family's visit, so it all got a bit out of hand. But still mostly not even shippy. /o\( Unconventional Results Under Here )
- Tags: adam adamant lives!, avengers (uk), blackadder, crossover, doctor who, dracula, fannish nonsense, fannish scribbles, once upon a time, random generators, red dwarf, regina mills, unconventionalcourtship
Well, I went AWOL for most of the month of July. I do apologise for not following through on the JWP exchange - looks like it was a really good one, too.
I lost one of the horses in late June - Ariel, a mare that I bred and raised. She colicked with a twisted gut and there was nothing we could do. except send her to surgery, but since I didn't have a spare $20,000 (among other things) that wasn't an option. I was able to carry on for a few days, but then it just hit me like a ton of bricks and I spent most of July in a quivering mess. I'm mostly OK now, but it's still a wrench when I see her empty stall.
I wanted to spread the word that theacd_holmesfest
is about to start on DW. Signups are open RIGHT NOW through August 13th. I'm looking forward to a great round of classic Holmes fic. Please consider joining in. The 'fest has been on hiatus for the last year or so and this is our first edition on DW, but it's always been great fun with lots of wonderful fic and art, so c'mon over!
Whew! I thought I'd lost this post. DW does take some getting used to, but all is well. Save