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Edging Toward Enough by Arsenic Jade (NC-17)
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sperrywink and I'll be your POPSLASH driver for June. Probably the biggest Pop Fandom happening this month is The Backstreet Boys releasing their new CD Never Gone on June 14 so I decided to emphasize BSB in my recommendations although I will sneak in one or two intra-NSYNC since a couple of my all time favorites haven't been recced yet. Since my favorite BSBer is Howie, this might end up just being Howie Month, but I’ll try and mix it up a bit more (but don't hold your breath. *g*).
Fandom: POPSLASH
Pairing: AJ McLean/Sarah Martin, AJ McLean/Howie Dorough
Author on LJ:arsenicjade
Author Website: every rose has a thorn
Why this must be read:
Author's warnings: This story deals with suicide, please either read with caution or do not read if this is going to cause issues for you.
This story goes back to a couple of years ago to when AJ and Sarah were engaged (and before they broke up) and takes an AU turn from there. A complex and troubled Sarah is born who struggles emotionally and fights her problems as long as she can until they overwhelm her and she commits suicide starting off the story. We then follow AJ over the course of a year or two as he remembers Sarah and comes to terms with a life without her and what the band means to him, Howie in particular.
This is one of the longer story recs I'll do as well as one of my all time favorite stories. Despite the tragic events that start off the story, I re-read this story often because of AJ's humanized and complex characterization and the positive way the band pulls together to help AJ and cope themselves. AJ is given the time to adjust to Sarah's suicide and grieve realistically and the change in his relationship with Howie from friends to more is allowed to progress organically. I love how this story shows the caring and concern between the members and shows the band as a unit also dealing with the tragedy. I also like how the band's families are included in this story. They enrich the story and create a whole world instead of a tight, insular band bubble but don't over-run the story.
It hadn't felt as long as AJ thought was appropriate before the paramedic who had been feeding his wife oxygen sat up and shook his head. Another paramedic looked at his watch. "Time of death, 8:02 am, Pacific Standard Time."
"That's it? You're not gonna take her to the hospital, pump her stomach, do fucking something?" AJ was screaming, making a scene on his front lawn and he couldn't have cared less, wanted to make a bigger scene, hit one of the paramedics, maybe.
"Sir, I'm sorry, your wife, sir, she was probably already dead when we arrived. There was nothing we could do. I'm sorry."
AJ looked at his dead wife, pale and seemingly wide awake in the bare light of LA's morning sun. He whispered, "So what do I do now?" and didn't have the energy to tell the paramedic, who began talking about funeral arrangements and such, that AJ hadn't been talking to him.
Edging Toward Enough by Arsenic Jade
sperrywink and I'll be your POPSLASH driver for June. Probably the biggest Pop Fandom happening this month is The Backstreet Boys releasing their new CD Never Gone on June 14 so I decided to emphasize BSB in my recommendations although I will sneak in one or two intra-NSYNC since a couple of my all time favorites haven't been recced yet. Since my favorite BSBer is Howie, this might end up just being Howie Month, but I’ll try and mix it up a bit more (but don't hold your breath. *g*). Fandom: POPSLASH
Pairing: AJ McLean/Sarah Martin, AJ McLean/Howie Dorough
Author on LJ:
arsenicjadeAuthor Website: every rose has a thorn
Why this must be read:
Author's warnings: This story deals with suicide, please either read with caution or do not read if this is going to cause issues for you.
This story goes back to a couple of years ago to when AJ and Sarah were engaged (and before they broke up) and takes an AU turn from there. A complex and troubled Sarah is born who struggles emotionally and fights her problems as long as she can until they overwhelm her and she commits suicide starting off the story. We then follow AJ over the course of a year or two as he remembers Sarah and comes to terms with a life without her and what the band means to him, Howie in particular.
This is one of the longer story recs I'll do as well as one of my all time favorite stories. Despite the tragic events that start off the story, I re-read this story often because of AJ's humanized and complex characterization and the positive way the band pulls together to help AJ and cope themselves. AJ is given the time to adjust to Sarah's suicide and grieve realistically and the change in his relationship with Howie from friends to more is allowed to progress organically. I love how this story shows the caring and concern between the members and shows the band as a unit also dealing with the tragedy. I also like how the band's families are included in this story. They enrich the story and create a whole world instead of a tight, insular band bubble but don't over-run the story.
It hadn't felt as long as AJ thought was appropriate before the paramedic who had been feeding his wife oxygen sat up and shook his head. Another paramedic looked at his watch. "Time of death, 8:02 am, Pacific Standard Time."
"That's it? You're not gonna take her to the hospital, pump her stomach, do fucking something?" AJ was screaming, making a scene on his front lawn and he couldn't have cared less, wanted to make a bigger scene, hit one of the paramedics, maybe.
"Sir, I'm sorry, your wife, sir, she was probably already dead when we arrived. There was nothing we could do. I'm sorry."
AJ looked at his dead wife, pale and seemingly wide awake in the bare light of LA's morning sun. He whispered, "So what do I do now?" and didn't have the energy to tell the paramedic, who began talking about funeral arrangements and such, that AJ hadn't been talking to him.
Edging Toward Enough by Arsenic Jade
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