Without Fear by Scala (NC-17)

[pepper-ckua.livejournal.com]

Fandom: THE SENTINEL
Pairing: Jim/other, Blair/other, Jim/Blair
Length: 8 long parts, all between 60k and 112k
Author on LJ: ?
Author Website:Scala's link at 852 Prospect
Why this must be read:

It's long, plotty, angsty, hot, full of misunderstandings and has two of the most well-rounded, complicated Jim and Blairs I've had the pleasure of reading.

Without Fear part one
Without Fear part two
Without Fear part three
Without Fear part four
Without Fear part five
Without Fear part six
Without Fear part seven
Without Fear part eight

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

This story was so painfully one-sided I wanted to weep for Jim the entire time. Jim has to do all the begging, all the patient waiting, all the understanding, all the adoring. Blair disappears without letting him know where he is or that he's even alive, leaving Jim without any help with his senses as he swore he wouldn't, leaving Jim confused and in pain for a year, and then when Jim finally manages to track down Blair, Blair apparently doesn't care enough to ask (and find out) how Jim has been suffering with this senses, which of course go crazy at times because he just needs Blair so damned much.

And then they finally become lovers, and Jim begs him to come back, Blair says no, and then when Jim offers to give up his life and move to be with Blair, Blair still says no, and then he cancels their plans for Jim to fly down for a visit (without explaining why, just that he needs "space") and then suddenly Blair disappears again, without explanation, in spite of their agreement, and breaks Jim's heart again, and then when Blair shows up, all of a sudden Jim is all happy. Oh, yay. Oh how satisfying that Blair deigned to return. With an "oops, sorry" that doesn't acknowledge any of Jim's pain and patience, without Jim having any resentment for what Blair put him through or receiving any real caring from Blair, or having any release for all his pain.

Don't read this unless you like to watch Blair torture Jim for a year and a half while he works out his "issues" and Jim gets nothing at all from Blair, who supposedly adores him (if that's adoration, I'll take door #2.)

Oh, and Blair never makes love to Jim. It's always the other way around.

[pepper-ckua.livejournal.com]

You read it all the way through, which is more torture than I would have been able to take. :-)

And even though it's anonymous, at least my rec inspired some sort of comment...

[oreouk.livejournal.com]

Hang on - are you saying you recommend reading the story or that you don't recommend reading it??

[pepper-ckua.livejournal.com]

I liked this fic a lot which is WHY I recommended it. Otherwise I wouldn't have gone to the trouble.

"Without Fear" had two imperfect people trying to do their best with difficult situations, sometimes succeeding, sometimes failing.

I like to read a more-or-less perfect Jim and Blair screwing up in small ways and cleaning up the mess later.

I like to read them screwing up in big ways and cleaning up the mess later.

I'd hate to read a fic that had major screw-ups that have no possibility of being resolved. THAT would be a fic I wouldn't finish reading, not even to complain about it later.

But to me, "Without Fear" has two people both with very human faults and pretty massive issues, making mistakes, being unfair to each other at times, trying to figure stuff out sometimes at the expense of others and hoping to find their way home. I have enough faith in them to know they'll be fine.

But hey, like with reading any fic, your mileage will vary.

And if it inspires people to bother to comment, then maybe my work here is done.

Thanks and a little help...

[kuwsi-dilla.livejournal.com]

This was a fabulous rec just fabulous. I really wanted to feedback the author but her contact email on 852 is no good.

Any idea where I could send your the praise she deserves ?

And some of that praise goes to you thank you, thank you, thank you for an amazing rec.

Re: Thanks and a little help...

[pepper-ckua.livejournal.com]

I'm really glad you liked it. The story's long and complicated but a good read.

I have no idea how to get a hold of the author. Sorry!