"And This Gray Spirit" by nemo_everbeing (G)

[amaresu]

Fandom: Sapphire and Steel
Pairing: Sapphire/Steel UST and a wee bit of Steel/Silver if you squint
Author on LJ: nemo_everbeing
Author Website: ???
Why this must be read: Nemo_everbeing gives a harsh look at Steel. As is stated throughout the series they were created for a purpose. This is a fic that looks at what Steel was made for and then asks if that's all he wants. Silver was made for a different purpose and sometimes Steel may envy him for that, but Steel is Steel and his purpose is his being.



There were moments—only moments—when Steel envied Silver bitterly. It wasn’t even for the expected reasons. For all Silver’s flirtations, Steel knew that Sapphire had more sense than to take up with such a rake. And looking at the situation objectively, Sapphire wasn’t the only recipient of Silver’s charms. If it was female and attractive, Silver was bound to make a move. It was his nature. Steel even had the suspicion that Silver had attempted to chat him up once or twice. Probably out of boredom or a desire to keep in practice, but still. Silver’s flirtations meant nothing, neither as a signifier of his regard nor of his intent.



No, Steel never envied Silver’s glib tongue or its results, no matter how the behavior irritated him. He never envied Silver his unstructured specialist’s lifestyle. Steel was a being who preferred his life regimented down to the minute.



And yet he envied.


And This Gray Spirt