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jannika (R)
Fandom: BIG TIME RUSH
Pairing: OT4 and nearly all variations within
Length: ~7,850 words
Author on LJ:jannika
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theborogoves
Why this must be read: I would be an absolute failure as a reccer if I didn't point people towards some OT4 this month, because Big Time Rush is a show about four boys who love each other very, very much. This is my favorite OT4 fic because it tackles the really hard part of how the heck they can actually get there. Because sometimes on the show, it doesn't seem like much of a stretch… but they're also four teenage boys, dealing with lots of confusing emotions, and relationships are tricky even when everyone loves everyone. I love this fic for letting them break a little bit, and letting things be raw and painful while everyone figures out what they want and how to make it happen.
It’s those moments, and a hundred other little things like smiles and whispered comments and inside jokes and the scent of hair products on his sheets and that time in the shower that make Logan question everything he’s ever thought. Not just the moments themselves, but how happy he is in them, how happy he is looking back at them, how happy and warm and content and safe. It’s easy, even when in the midst of all the secrets and sneaking.
There is part of Logan, though. This quiet little part, this little voice at night that questions it all. This little voice that wonders if maybe it’s all a lie. If maybe he’s a terrible person. If maybe all those little moments only feel like falling in love because he desperately needs them to. If all those moments stand out because if this is just a thing, if it is just that making out, then he and James are on the path to something terrible. If they’re not something more, then when Kendall and Carlos and everyone find out (And he’s a genius, so this voice, unlike the two during the day, gets that they will get caught eventually. He knows that.) And it destroys them it will have all been for lust, and part of Logan is pretty sure he just can’t deal with that. If he’s not in love with James, then he’s actively betraying his friends for some passing teenage hormones, and he’s not sure how to forgive himself for that. Not sure if he could.
Not sure if he’ll need to. Because then he drifts off all feelings and doubt, and wakes up half convinced they’ll never get caught and it doesn’t matter and half convinced he’s falling in love with James. It never leads to anything but more kissing, more closets and other secret places they’ve found throughout the Palmwoods.
Sometimes, he thinks they should talk about it, but he has no idea what he wants to say and even less of an idea what he wants to hear James say. So they just keep kissing.
A Series of Really Poor Choices
Pairing: OT4 and nearly all variations within
Length: ~7,850 words
Author on LJ:
jannikaAuthor Website:
theborogovesWhy this must be read: I would be an absolute failure as a reccer if I didn't point people towards some OT4 this month, because Big Time Rush is a show about four boys who love each other very, very much. This is my favorite OT4 fic because it tackles the really hard part of how the heck they can actually get there. Because sometimes on the show, it doesn't seem like much of a stretch… but they're also four teenage boys, dealing with lots of confusing emotions, and relationships are tricky even when everyone loves everyone. I love this fic for letting them break a little bit, and letting things be raw and painful while everyone figures out what they want and how to make it happen.
It’s those moments, and a hundred other little things like smiles and whispered comments and inside jokes and the scent of hair products on his sheets and that time in the shower that make Logan question everything he’s ever thought. Not just the moments themselves, but how happy he is in them, how happy he is looking back at them, how happy and warm and content and safe. It’s easy, even when in the midst of all the secrets and sneaking.
There is part of Logan, though. This quiet little part, this little voice at night that questions it all. This little voice that wonders if maybe it’s all a lie. If maybe he’s a terrible person. If maybe all those little moments only feel like falling in love because he desperately needs them to. If all those moments stand out because if this is just a thing, if it is just that making out, then he and James are on the path to something terrible. If they’re not something more, then when Kendall and Carlos and everyone find out (And he’s a genius, so this voice, unlike the two during the day, gets that they will get caught eventually. He knows that.) And it destroys them it will have all been for lust, and part of Logan is pretty sure he just can’t deal with that. If he’s not in love with James, then he’s actively betraying his friends for some passing teenage hormones, and he’s not sure how to forgive himself for that. Not sure if he could.
Not sure if he’ll need to. Because then he drifts off all feelings and doubt, and wakes up half convinced they’ll never get caught and it doesn’t matter and half convinced he’s falling in love with James. It never leads to anything but more kissing, more closets and other secret places they’ve found throughout the Palmwoods.
Sometimes, he thinks they should talk about it, but he has no idea what he wants to say and even less of an idea what he wants to hear James say. So they just keep kissing.
A Series of Really Poor Choices