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Not My Lover by Deslea R. Judd (NC-17)
Hello ladies and gents! I'm Azar, and I'll be your X-Files rec'er for August. A brief summary of what you can expect from me? Unconventional pairings, fic that focuses on characters *other* than Mulder and Scully, and lots of Doggett. :-D What you won't see a lot of from me is MSR, DRR, or slash, since those aren't my preferences in XF. (I do have some favorite MSR stories from the days when I *was* a 'shipper, but I'm not one anymore.) Going through past recs, I noticed a lot more variety than I expected, but the past few months have still been pretty MSR heavy, so here's a little something different:
Fandom: X-FILES
Pairing: Krycek/Marita, a dash of Mulder/Krycek and Skinner/Scully implied
Author on LJ:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
deslea
Author Website: Literatti
Why this must be read:
You can't wander far off the beaten path (meaning MSR) in X-Files fandom without stumbling over Deslea. She first made her mark in the Skinner/Scully genre, but made it indellible when she ventured into mytharc-centric fic in which Mulder and Scully are peripheral characters at best. She almost singlehandedly invented the Krycek/Marita pairing as a serious subgenre of XF fic, and she has a grasp of the mytharc with its myriad complexities that Chris Carter could only *wish* he had. ;-)
Not My Lover is one of the best examples of Deslea's work. It tells the story of the mytharc from Alex and Marita's POV from the end of the second season up through the end of the seventh. It's hard to explain why Deslea's Krycek-as-hero works when so many others' don't, but I think it's because she doesn't ignore or downplay the dark side of the character, but also doesn't play it up to a point where you can't sympathize with him at all. Her Krycek--and Marita too--are both pragmatic and Machiavellian: they have a goal, to prevent colonization, and they'll do whatever has to be done, sacrifice whatever has to be sacrificed, to achieve that greater good. But you sympathize with the very human way they are each other's buffer against that necessity. Basically it's a story of love, loss, betrayal, forgiveness and redemption for two people caught not between light and dark but between varying shades of gray.
Not My Lover
Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V | Part VI | Part VII | Afterword
Fandom: X-FILES
Pairing: Krycek/Marita, a dash of Mulder/Krycek and Skinner/Scully implied
Author on LJ:
desleaAuthor Website: Literatti
Why this must be read:
You can't wander far off the beaten path (meaning MSR) in X-Files fandom without stumbling over Deslea. She first made her mark in the Skinner/Scully genre, but made it indellible when she ventured into mytharc-centric fic in which Mulder and Scully are peripheral characters at best. She almost singlehandedly invented the Krycek/Marita pairing as a serious subgenre of XF fic, and she has a grasp of the mytharc with its myriad complexities that Chris Carter could only *wish* he had. ;-)
Not My Lover is one of the best examples of Deslea's work. It tells the story of the mytharc from Alex and Marita's POV from the end of the second season up through the end of the seventh. It's hard to explain why Deslea's Krycek-as-hero works when so many others' don't, but I think it's because she doesn't ignore or downplay the dark side of the character, but also doesn't play it up to a point where you can't sympathize with him at all. Her Krycek--and Marita too--are both pragmatic and Machiavellian: they have a goal, to prevent colonization, and they'll do whatever has to be done, sacrifice whatever has to be sacrificed, to achieve that greater good. But you sympathize with the very human way they are each other's buffer against that necessity. Basically it's a story of love, loss, betrayal, forgiveness and redemption for two people caught not between light and dark but between varying shades of gray.
I will never forget his face.
The elevator doors slid open, and he saw me, my gun trained on his chest. A fleeting look of disappointment crossed his features, followed by resignation. We stood there for agonising seconds, staring at one another, frozen. I stood firm, but there were tears streaming down my cheeks.
I heard footsteps. I flinched; half hoping it might be some other henchman of Spender's, here to finish us both; but then I knew who it was.
"Mare."
I felt waves of relief that he was here, of shame at what I had almost done...at what he would do for me. And then he was at my side, and his hands were pressing mine, easing them down, gently coaxing the weapon from my fingers. I relinquished it gratefully.
**I'll do it for you. Promise me you'll never kill, Mare.**
His left arm slid around my shoulders, drawing me close. His right rose the weapon abruptly, and fired it. My heart breaking, I saw the dark man's chest explode with blood; saw him stagger back, his expression one of supreme surprise. And then, I broke away, and ran to his side.
Not My Lover
Part I | Part II | Part III | Part IV | Part V | Part VI | Part VII | Afterword
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erm, for one not familiar with the fandom but only with the series, and partially at that (horrible bradcasting times), what do MSR and DRR mean?
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Hope that helps! And glad you enjoyed the fic!
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Well, fo rme X-Files was M and S and their UST, once you start changing the main characters..it wasn't as good, imo, still very enjoable but I lost interest - besides, it was aired very irregularly anyway and it was difficult to keep al lthe plots and subplots and storyarch straight, sigh.
And yes I did enjoy the fic :)
Krycek was my favourite character in XFiles *g*