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Final Destination by KinneyCutie (PG-13)
Fandom: QUEER AS FOLK US
Pairing: Ben/Michael, Brian/Michael
Author on LJ: -
Author Website: -
Why this must be read:
This is an angsty, well-written take on the Ben Taking Steroids storyline during Season Three, focusing in particular on the confrontation between Ben and Brian, which forces all three characters to come to certain realizations about their relationships. The author deviates somewhat from canon events, but manages to make the characters ring true by examining their interactions and providing a first person insight into each individual's psyche. The journey imagery employed to describe each pairing's relationship is poignantly played out, and Kinneycutie's interpretation of Brian, in particular, is given a certain emotional depth that I find is often-times lacking on the show. Hope you guys enjoy this story as much as I did.
"I want to hear you say it. Tell me I'm not good enough for him."
Childish declarations bored me. Silence spoke volumes.
"I'm leaving."
"Say it!!"
"YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!"
I don't know which one of us was more shocked. Fuck!! My insides quivered as I fought to regain control.
Ben's slight smirk of victory, coupled with the pain in his eyes, shouted his thoughts at me even before he quietly said the words.
"And you are?"
My heart was beating so loudly I was sure Ben could hear it. This time I stuck to my code of silence, wrenching myself from his grasp and marching away from his judicious gaze. Fuck him and fuck this! I'd had enough of this conversation.
I yanked the door open, not once giving him the satisfaction of looking back, I knew I wasn't worthy but someday I would be. In the meantime, who was I to begrudge Michael what he needed - the flowers, the dates, the heterosexual romantic bullshit that David and Ben fed him? Let him have that. Michael knew that I loved him; I showed him in other ways. David, Ben, Justin and everyone who would come after them, needed to understand. They were the journey; Michael and I were the final destination.
Final Destination
Pairing: Ben/Michael, Brian/Michael
Author on LJ: -
Author Website: -
Why this must be read:
This is an angsty, well-written take on the Ben Taking Steroids storyline during Season Three, focusing in particular on the confrontation between Ben and Brian, which forces all three characters to come to certain realizations about their relationships. The author deviates somewhat from canon events, but manages to make the characters ring true by examining their interactions and providing a first person insight into each individual's psyche. The journey imagery employed to describe each pairing's relationship is poignantly played out, and Kinneycutie's interpretation of Brian, in particular, is given a certain emotional depth that I find is often-times lacking on the show. Hope you guys enjoy this story as much as I did.
"I want to hear you say it. Tell me I'm not good enough for him."
Childish declarations bored me. Silence spoke volumes.
"I'm leaving."
"Say it!!"
"YOU'RE NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!"
I don't know which one of us was more shocked. Fuck!! My insides quivered as I fought to regain control.
Ben's slight smirk of victory, coupled with the pain in his eyes, shouted his thoughts at me even before he quietly said the words.
"And you are?"
My heart was beating so loudly I was sure Ben could hear it. This time I stuck to my code of silence, wrenching myself from his grasp and marching away from his judicious gaze. Fuck him and fuck this! I'd had enough of this conversation.
I yanked the door open, not once giving him the satisfaction of looking back, I knew I wasn't worthy but someday I would be. In the meantime, who was I to begrudge Michael what he needed - the flowers, the dates, the heterosexual romantic bullshit that David and Ben fed him? Let him have that. Michael knew that I loved him; I showed him in other ways. David, Ben, Justin and everyone who would come after them, needed to understand. They were the journey; Michael and I were the final destination.
Final Destination