ext_13074 ([identity profile] rachel-martin64.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] crack_van2006-01-09 08:42 pm
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The Depth of Sorrow by Snowflake (G)

Fandom: TOUR OF DUTY
Pairing:Friendship: Lieutenant Johnny McKay -- Lieutenant Myron Goldman
Author on LJ: Spacebabe
Author Website: No personal website
Why this must be read:

Not much occurs on the surface in this story, and hardly any words are exchanged between the characters. After a mission, McKay sets his helicopter down in a river to wash the blood out of it. As he works, his crew chief plays upstream with some local children. Goldman stands on the riverbank with his back to them all.

I like the imagery in this story. The red water flowing across the deck of the Huey; a near-by dried-up rice paddy symbolizing a forcibly re-settled village; the air shimmering in the passage of a helicopter squadron; the warm wind carrying the smell of smoke. The children play obliviously as gunships fly overhead and bloody water drips into the river. The scene where Goldman climbs back into the Huey, and afterwards – I could see it in my head as easily as if I were watching it on TV.

The death of Alex Devlin has hit McKay hard. While never alone, he’s lonely. He wants, badly, to connect with Goldman, who keeps pushing him away. But as distant as Goldman is, he’s still the closest thing to a friend McKay has – “how pathetic is that?”

Goldman silently apologizes to McKay in the course of the story. McKay reaches out again to Goldman, not to take but to give. Goldman’s reaction is in keeping with his character.


The Depth of Sorrow