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KimberlyFDR ([identity profile] kimberlyfdr.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] crack_van2006-07-30 11:35 am
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Dreams Trilogy by Elizabeth Lowry (R)

Fandom: STARSKY/HUTCH

Pairing: Starsky/Hutch

Why this must be read: Foolish Dreams centers around Hutch. He's come to a realization in his life and he talks it over with their therapist-friend. After loving Starsky silently for four years, Hutch realizes that it's never going to happen so he's decided to let it go and focus on his own happiness for once. But the thing is, Hutch has never come out and really said it. He's dropped hints, but he's never flat-out told Starsky. And why? Because he's afraid of failing. He doesn't want the rejection, so he doesn't take the chance.

In Futile Dreams, it's Starsky's turn to talk with their therapist-friend. Hutch has made plans with Starsky to get it all out in the open, but Starsky isn't sure what the discussion topic will be about. He has some indication, but he need verification. Starsky has the same feelings, but he can't accept them or maybe he's not ready yet. And he's scared and he wants reassurance, but when you're talking about something like this, there's never really any concrete assurances. You take the chance and you see what happenes. Sometimes it's a good leap and other times it's a mistake, but you have to take the chance.

Finishing up the trilogy is Dreams and Hopes. It's time for them to talk and there's just so much fear over doing something wrong. Taking a chance is scary and maybe Starsky's not ready to leap into that unknown. Hutch loving Starsky doesn't "just happen" and that's the most painful part. Belittling what Hutch feels, it's not a good choice, but when you're scared you don't think about all of the consequences. It's all too much, but once everything is out in the open they can both learn what it all means and maybe realize that they're both feeling the same thing. It's going to take time, but it's worth it.


Foolish Dreams

Futile Dreams

Dreams and Hopes

[identity profile] susan217.livejournal.com 2006-08-17 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
Loved, loved, loved, loved, freaking LOVED that. Great rec. :D