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Lost in the Loving: Lighting You Home by Carson Kearns (NC-17)
Fandom: HIGHLANDER
Author on LJ: None known
Author Website: Carson Kearns' Highlander Fanfic
Pairing: Duncan/Methos
Warning: Angst with a capital A, and assumes a significant knowledge of Highlander.
Why this must be read: At the end of season 5, Duncan MacLeod accidentally murdered someone close to him. This is the story of what happened next.
When MacLeod killed Richie at the end of season 5, I was shocked. I couldn't see Duncan MacLeod forgiving himself, especially in the 47 minutes TV allows for closure on life-changing events. This story provided the emotional journey I needed.
Carson's "Lost in the Loving" series has Duncan and Methos in an established relationship. In "Lighting You Home" they are recently estranged by the revelation of Methos's past. Mac is suicidal after killing Richie, and Methos is desperate to save his life and sanity. This is not a cheerful story. I started reading and was not able to stop. You follow the two of them into the valley of darkest despair, and then slowly out the other side.
Carson's Methos is complex, believable, and rather frightening. Duncan's grief is turned inward to self-destruction. And in the background you can hear the distant, discordant tones of Ahriman himself.
Joe looked at Methos in confusion and despair, brokenly insisting that it would be a kindness "...to let Mac die. He'll never be able to live with himself. Never. Maybe this time he really has lost it. Too many Quickenings - too many personal tragedies. Even the best of you can't keep bearing that weight!".
Cold ashes swept about Methos, the Horseman called Death. Called to him. Smelt and sang of Death. And from the deepest parts of Adam Pierson's psyche and soul, his old friend, Death, answered. For if anyone could bring his lover through this tragedy, Methos - Methos - might. If Duncan MacLeod sought Death, then Death would answer.
"Well Joe if there's one thing I understand it's insanity." Joe paused in his weeping and looked - really looked - at Methos. And he knew without a doubt that what Methos said was true. For who else could truly get inside the frenzied terror of total madness and mayhem? Who could give Duncan MacLeod succour now - apart from Methos' deepest and truest self? Who alive could finally bring some hope and reassurance that madness and death could be contained and welcomed as a permanent lodger in one's heart and soul?
Methos. Only Methos.
Read Lighting You Home.
Author on LJ: None known
Author Website: Carson Kearns' Highlander Fanfic
Pairing: Duncan/Methos
Warning: Angst with a capital A, and assumes a significant knowledge of Highlander.
Why this must be read: At the end of season 5, Duncan MacLeod accidentally murdered someone close to him. This is the story of what happened next.
When MacLeod killed Richie at the end of season 5, I was shocked. I couldn't see Duncan MacLeod forgiving himself, especially in the 47 minutes TV allows for closure on life-changing events. This story provided the emotional journey I needed.
Carson's "Lost in the Loving" series has Duncan and Methos in an established relationship. In "Lighting You Home" they are recently estranged by the revelation of Methos's past. Mac is suicidal after killing Richie, and Methos is desperate to save his life and sanity. This is not a cheerful story. I started reading and was not able to stop. You follow the two of them into the valley of darkest despair, and then slowly out the other side.
Carson's Methos is complex, believable, and rather frightening. Duncan's grief is turned inward to self-destruction. And in the background you can hear the distant, discordant tones of Ahriman himself.
Joe looked at Methos in confusion and despair, brokenly insisting that it would be a kindness "...to let Mac die. He'll never be able to live with himself. Never. Maybe this time he really has lost it. Too many Quickenings - too many personal tragedies. Even the best of you can't keep bearing that weight!".
Cold ashes swept about Methos, the Horseman called Death. Called to him. Smelt and sang of Death. And from the deepest parts of Adam Pierson's psyche and soul, his old friend, Death, answered. For if anyone could bring his lover through this tragedy, Methos - Methos - might. If Duncan MacLeod sought Death, then Death would answer.
"Well Joe if there's one thing I understand it's insanity." Joe paused in his weeping and looked - really looked - at Methos. And he knew without a doubt that what Methos said was true. For who else could truly get inside the frenzied terror of total madness and mayhem? Who could give Duncan MacLeod succour now - apart from Methos' deepest and truest self? Who alive could finally bring some hope and reassurance that madness and death could be contained and welcomed as a permanent lodger in one's heart and soul?
Methos. Only Methos.
Read Lighting You Home.
Thank you
Carson..