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beatrice_otter ([personal profile] beatrice_otter) wrote in [community profile] crack_van2007-07-30 06:01 pm

You're Nowhere by LuvEwan (PG)

Fandom: STAR WARS
Pairing: Qui-Gon Jinn, Obi-Wan Kenobi
Author on LJ: none known
Author Website: LuvEwan's page on ff.net
Why this must be read:

Insomnia brings brief illumination to a monumental rift between Master and former apprentice. An alternate universe piece, beginning from The Phantom Menace on.

This is not slash, but the relationship it portrays between Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan is at least as powerful as any physical relationship could ever be. It's an AU where Qui-Gon didn't die on Naboo and took Anakin as his Padawan; Obi-Wan's knighting came, not after a battle with the Sith, but simply by Qui-Gon turning him loose to make room for Anakin. In every other TPM AU I've read where Qui-Gon survives, it's a very good thing for Obi-Wan. Would it really have been? A brief look at a destroyed relationship, free of melodrama.

“And what brought you here, Master Jinn?”

“A supremely irritating case of insomnia. My mind doesn’t share my body’s need for sleep, I suppose.” He ran a hand through his hair. “Anakin has been a…challenge lately.”

“Yes, but you’re always up for a good challenge.”

It wasn’t malice twisted in the tone. On the contrary, the observation was delivered flatly. Qui-Gon blew out a breath. “I’m not a young man. I’m beginning to believe I cannot afford much more ambition. Anakin is the end of it.”

“I’m sorry to hear that.” The sentiment was not evident on his face.

“The pathetic life forms of the Universe will have to start rescuing themselves.” Qui-Gon chuckled, but it felt forced, even to his own ears.

Obi-Wan regarded his former teacher with pale, penetrating eyes. Outside, the wind cut a ragged howl across the night. “Perhaps it’s better that way.”

“How so?” Qui-Gon prepared for the jab even as the question parted from his lips.

It took a moment before the younger Jedi replied, and during that moment a great deliberation rolled hard along his countenance, “It’s better to learn to take care of yourself,” He said at last, and shook his head; “There isn’t always someone there to rescue you.”

You're Nowhere

[identity profile] thrace-adams.livejournal.com 2007-07-31 06:44 pm (UTC)(link)
This was incredibly sad. ONe of the best fics I've read in a while, AU where Qui-Gon is alive. Very well done.
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[personal profile] pronker 2007-12-29 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
Hi, here from Jedi News. It's good to see one of LuvEwan's pieces recommended. I'd read a great deal of her work on TFN and this vignette in particular catches the angst that she excels at.