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Scar Tissue by Jericho (R)
Fandom: POPSLASH
Pairing: Brian/Nick
Author on LJ:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
jericho1
Author Website: Sweet & Low
Why this must be read: You may or may not have noticed that Brian has been featured a lot in my recs this month. I did that because he's my favorite and he doesn't get represented enough. So for my last rec, I wanted to find a story that focuses mainly on him. And this one fits the bill perfectly.
The story takes place around the time of Nick's 21st birthday and the following months up until AJ checked into rehab. Mostly it deals with Brian coming to terms with the fact that his friendship with Nick is changing, whether he likes it or not. The isolation he feels in this story is so palpable and so relatable. I love it for the simple message it has that things have to change sometimes, no matter how much you don't want them to. The story is about grief; grief of a friendship, and it's not all happy, but it's not all sad either. It just is. And I think it's gorgeous. So, with that I say thank you for letting me drive the popslash van this month! It's been a lot of fun. :)
He walked quickly to Nick's door, because if he took his time he'd lose his nerve. He knocked once, fully prepared to turn around and walk away if Nick didn't answer immediately. But the door opened and Nick peered around it. "Hey."
"Hey. Can I come in?"
"Sure." Nick unchained the safety lock and opened the door all the way, letting Brian step past him before he shut it. "What's up?"
"I just thought maybe...we could hang out."
Nick inhaled sharply, eyes darting to the side, hands coming together so Nick could pick his fingernails. "I'm kind of...it's not really...."
"Why not?" He wasn't sure where this new surge of aggressiveness was coming from. Maybe it was because it was one of the only times he'd had Nick alone since his birthday. Maybe it was because Nick didn't need this friendship anymore, and Brian did, but Nick was too blind to realize it. Either way, just coming out with it lifted a little of the weight off his heart. At least they were talking. At least he had Nick alone in his room, where Nick couldn't escape. "We haven't hung out since..."
"My birthday. I know." It was obvious that Nick couldn't look at him. He was fidgeting, and awkward, and Brian felt a twitch of annoyance.
"Yeah. Why not?"
"Because..." Another deep inhale. Nick scratched his head. Pursed his lips. All the usual deep thinking signs. "Look, I shouldn't have told you how I felt and...you're happy...."
Something inside Brian broke. He wasn't sure what it was. His heart? His patience? His sanity? Whatever it was, it made it to his vocal chords, because his voice came out louder than he wanted it to, and more shrill. "I am not happy!"
Scar Tissue
Pairing: Brian/Nick
Author on LJ:
jericho1Author Website: Sweet & Low
Why this must be read: You may or may not have noticed that Brian has been featured a lot in my recs this month. I did that because he's my favorite and he doesn't get represented enough. So for my last rec, I wanted to find a story that focuses mainly on him. And this one fits the bill perfectly.
The story takes place around the time of Nick's 21st birthday and the following months up until AJ checked into rehab. Mostly it deals with Brian coming to terms with the fact that his friendship with Nick is changing, whether he likes it or not. The isolation he feels in this story is so palpable and so relatable. I love it for the simple message it has that things have to change sometimes, no matter how much you don't want them to. The story is about grief; grief of a friendship, and it's not all happy, but it's not all sad either. It just is. And I think it's gorgeous. So, with that I say thank you for letting me drive the popslash van this month! It's been a lot of fun. :)
He walked quickly to Nick's door, because if he took his time he'd lose his nerve. He knocked once, fully prepared to turn around and walk away if Nick didn't answer immediately. But the door opened and Nick peered around it. "Hey."
"Hey. Can I come in?"
"Sure." Nick unchained the safety lock and opened the door all the way, letting Brian step past him before he shut it. "What's up?"
"I just thought maybe...we could hang out."
Nick inhaled sharply, eyes darting to the side, hands coming together so Nick could pick his fingernails. "I'm kind of...it's not really...."
"Why not?" He wasn't sure where this new surge of aggressiveness was coming from. Maybe it was because it was one of the only times he'd had Nick alone since his birthday. Maybe it was because Nick didn't need this friendship anymore, and Brian did, but Nick was too blind to realize it. Either way, just coming out with it lifted a little of the weight off his heart. At least they were talking. At least he had Nick alone in his room, where Nick couldn't escape. "We haven't hung out since..."
"My birthday. I know." It was obvious that Nick couldn't look at him. He was fidgeting, and awkward, and Brian felt a twitch of annoyance.
"Yeah. Why not?"
"Because..." Another deep inhale. Nick scratched his head. Pursed his lips. All the usual deep thinking signs. "Look, I shouldn't have told you how I felt and...you're happy...."
Something inside Brian broke. He wasn't sure what it was. His heart? His patience? His sanity? Whatever it was, it made it to his vocal chords, because his voice came out louder than he wanted it to, and more shrill. "I am not happy!"
Scar Tissue
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Which means I'm going to need to pull a BSB icon out of retirement.
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