Matter and Antimatter, by Killa (NC-17)

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Fandom: Highlander
Pairing: Duncan/Methos
Author on LJ: killabeez
Author Website: Killa's Adventures in Melodrama
Why this mustbe read:It must be read because it's Killa, of course. This particular Killa must-read opens on a tense and atmospheric late-night scene in Joe's Bar, where Methos and Joe wait tensely for the outcome of Duncan's fight with Byron. The story turns neatly on canon, the end of the episode becoming the beginning of long night -- and ultimately an understanding between Duncan and Methos.

But first:

As simply as that, the lie slipped away. Of course he knew why he had stayed, not just for the past two months but for more than two years. He had known from the beginning -- some part of him had known. What more fitting payment could there be for what he was, what he had been? It was inevitable, that his soul should have recognized Duncan MacLeod and yearn to be joined with him in every way possible, this man who was the mirror of himself but who was everything he hadn't chosen, this bright warrior whose very nature would demand a reckoning Methos had done perfectly well without for two thousand years.

From the beginning, the need to be known and accepted by this one man above all others had been a dangerous, unprecedented, nearly irresistible longing. For the first time in his life, his own acceptance of his dark past hadn't been enough. Everything in the universe sought its opposite.

Matter and antimatter. Perfectly mated, endlessly attracting, but only disaster resulted when they came together. The pathetic futility of it was painfully clear, now, and he damned himself for a fool for not facing it sooner. While he was at it, he damned Byron for his weakness and MacLeod for his strength, and for being Methos' own weakness, and for ever laying eyes on him.


Matter and Anti-Matter