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Fear of Falling, by Provetheworst (PG)
Fandom:Bandom(Panic At the Disco)
Pairing:Ryan Ross/Spencer Smith
Author on lj:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
provetheworst
Why this Must Be Read:
This is a "Ryan and Spencer grow up together" story. There are a lot of them, but this one is probably my favorite. It has this ache to it, and a painfully real Ryan. Him and Spencer stumble their way to their late teens and collect new things to not mention. Beautiful and bittersweet. (This story was also posted in a community that is now closed. Some of us have fond memories of it, so that adds another level to the bittersweet.)
"Yeah, he's a good singer. He could do lead."
"I'm lead," Ryan says, startled. "But, yeah, he's, he'd be good for it. I'm kind of. I guess I'd rather someone else. It's hard. My words, you know."
"Yeah," Spencer says, because they've had this conversation a hundred, a thousand, a hundred thousand times now.
Ryan says, "Besides, he'd be a better frontman than me, he looks like a lead singer. He's."
"Confident?"
"I was going to say hot."
"Oh," Spencer says.
Ryan says, "I kind of, you know, I should tell you, I guess, I."
"What?" Spencer says, but he thinks maybe he knows.
"I made out with a guy once at a party," Ryan says, quick, words partly run together. "I kind of liked it, I guess, even though he was drunk. I don't know what his name was. He was kind of a jock. A hot one, though. So like. I'm not going to," he says, "Never mind. I'm just saying. It was kind of all right."
"Okay," Spencer says.
"That's it? Okay?"
"Yeah."
Ryan gives Spencer a sidelong look but doesn't say anything more about it, and there's one more thing they don't talk about.
Fear of Falling
Pairing:Ryan Ross/Spencer Smith
Author on lj:
provetheworstWhy this Must Be Read:
This is a "Ryan and Spencer grow up together" story. There are a lot of them, but this one is probably my favorite. It has this ache to it, and a painfully real Ryan. Him and Spencer stumble their way to their late teens and collect new things to not mention. Beautiful and bittersweet. (This story was also posted in a community that is now closed. Some of us have fond memories of it, so that adds another level to the bittersweet.)
"Yeah, he's a good singer. He could do lead."
"I'm lead," Ryan says, startled. "But, yeah, he's, he'd be good for it. I'm kind of. I guess I'd rather someone else. It's hard. My words, you know."
"Yeah," Spencer says, because they've had this conversation a hundred, a thousand, a hundred thousand times now.
Ryan says, "Besides, he'd be a better frontman than me, he looks like a lead singer. He's."
"Confident?"
"I was going to say hot."
"Oh," Spencer says.
Ryan says, "I kind of, you know, I should tell you, I guess, I."
"What?" Spencer says, but he thinks maybe he knows.
"I made out with a guy once at a party," Ryan says, quick, words partly run together. "I kind of liked it, I guess, even though he was drunk. I don't know what his name was. He was kind of a jock. A hot one, though. So like. I'm not going to," he says, "Never mind. I'm just saying. It was kind of all right."
"Okay," Spencer says.
"That's it? Okay?"
"Yeah."
Ryan gives Spencer a sidelong look but doesn't say anything more about it, and there's one more thing they don't talk about.
Fear of Falling