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nickygabriel ([personal profile] nickygabriel) wrote in [community profile] crack_van2009-01-25 05:18 pm
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Invictus by Katherine (PG-13)

Fandom: STARSKY & HUTCH
Pairing: none
Length: 56k
Author on LJ: not known
Author Website: HERE
Why this must be read:

In my opinion this is the best Hutch h/c story I've ever read. It is not easy to read if you can relate with the situation there, but it's definitely worth the time.

Finally, his eyes opened. "Sorry...sorry." He closed his eyes, but a telltale tear slipped out of the corner.

"Sh! You don't have to be sorry, Babe. Ever."

"I'm sorry, Starsk. Sorry I'm being so selfish..."

"Selfish? What are you talkin' about?" I asked gently. "You don't have a selfish bone in your body, Blintz."

He shook his head, keeping his eyes closed. He didn't want to look at me. He was ashamed and for the life of me, I didn't know why.

"I couldn't. I tried...I wanted to. But I couldn't. I should have..." He was rambling, almost incoherent. Seein' him like this was scarin' me.

I pulled him closer, wrapping my arms around him. He was getting so thin, it wasn't hard. "What is it, Blondie? Tell me what you're talkin' about."

He buried his face in my shoulder. I had to strain to hear him. "I tried to leave. I was going. But I couldn't do it. I'm so sorry, Starsk." He raised his head, finally looking at me. "You deserve more than this. You should have a life, Buddy. A good life, not hanging around taking care of me. I want that for you. I really thought I could do it, I thought I could leave." His eyes darkened in self-hatred. "But I couldn't. I'm selfish. I...I need you, Starsk. I'm sorry. I should have left. But, I...I need you. Please forgive me. Please..." His face was in my shoulder again, but I heard, "Don't leave me."

Invictus
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[identity profile] lauramcewan.livejournal.com 2009-01-25 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Wahhhh!! *sniffles* Happy ending, yay!
Edited 2009-01-25 19:12 (UTC)

[identity profile] true-brit.livejournal.com 2009-01-28 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
This is one of my ALLTIME FAVORITE PIECES EVER.
It's one of the few I regularly recommend, and while the ending is (to my mind) just a little hasty, this story hits me in all the right places :-)