Occasions of Sin by Hiyacynth (PG-13)

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Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Gen
Author on LJ: hiyacynth
Author Website: Hiyacynth’s Fic Index
Why this must be read: A deeply real and affecting exploration of Sam's relationship with his family through the years. And yes, it’s just as painful as you’d expect it to be.

Dad stalks over to Sam and plants himself above him. "You think you're up for being backup, then you follow it through to the end. Your partner comes out of a job bloody, it's on you to fix him up. You've seen me do it. Hell, you've seen Dean do it. Time you moved up from the stew rabbits, Sammy."

Pastor Jim's voice is tight. "John, really. That's not necessary. I'm right here."

"Won't always be," Dad points out. "Our line of work, you can't always get to a hospital, don't always have a corpsman on hand. Boy's gonna have to do it sometime. Better now, with you to supervise, Doc."

Sam's stomach goes cold, and over Dean's groaning about how Sammy using him as a pincushion is just what he needs after the night he's had, he says, "No. I don't want to. Pastor Jim's…"

"Did I ask you what you want or did I give you an order?" Dad snaps in his drill-sergeant voice.

"I can't," Sam insists, face burning. "Really. I can't."

"Don't do this, John," Jim says in a tone Sam's never heard from him. "These boys will forgive you for it, but it'll be on your conscience--"

"Don't you tell me how to raise my sons,” Dad cuts him off. His face is bright red, but his voice is like a hard edge of ice. “You know how this family lives, what we're up against. They need to understand the responsibility--"

"This is not the way--"

"It's the only way. Winchesters looking out for Winchesters."

Occasions of Sin