"The Only Way" (R) and "And Then You Say Hey" (R) by Danvers

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Title: "The Only Way" and "And Then You Say Hey" by Danvers
Fandom: Stargate SG-1
Author on LJ: danvers
Author Website: untitled
Pairing: Daniel/Jonas
Why this must be read:

I'm usually not an angst junkie, and not much of a slash fan (there are a few pairings I like, but I'm supremely picky *g*), but the absolute ache of potential between Daniel and Jonas--two men whose *friendship* was doomed to be star-crossed, let alone anything more--is supremely compelling to me. By a cruel twist of fate, whatever bond they could share is always thwarted by the circumstances of their meeting. And few authors really know how to delve into that painful potential like danvers does. These two stories--one taking place during "Fallen"/"Homecoming" with flashbacks to "Meridian," the other during "Fall Out"--are almost physically painful to read, but lanced through with a thread of hope that is just as heartbreaking in its own way. Keep a Kleenex handy, not to mention someone to hug, 'cause you'll need them both after this one-two punch. *g*

"Is this going to be a problem?" Daniel asked when Jonas closed his eyes and let his head fall back against the door.

Jonas shook his head. "No. No problem."

"It's not how it looks from here."

Jonas looked at Daniel and threw up his hands. "I understand everyone's happy to see you again and don't get me wrong. That doesn't mean I'm not happy to see you. I am. You have no idea how happy."

"But?"

Something like anger flickered across Jonas' face for a second. But he regained control and it was replaced by a tight smile. He had no words for how he felt.

"But... I died and it screwed up your life?" Daniel suggested with a sad smile.

Jonas' face seemed to fall, his eyes becoming sad. Daniel hadn't changed much. His eyes still had that same warmth and understanding and Jonas still felt the lure of them. He stared at Daniel, feeling very alone and strangely empty.

Daniel got up from the floor and walked over to where Jonas was sitting. He held out his hand. Jonas stared at the hand and back at Daniel's eyes that seemed to glow in the dim lighting of the room. Jonas put his hand in Daniel's and he was pulled up from the floor.

"Do you want me to leave?" Daniel asked.

Jonas shook his head and accepted the kiss.

Daniel sighed and looked at Kianna as he folded his arms across his chest. Another casualty of the Goa'uld. Everything they touched turned to shit. The universe could only benefit if that species was wiped out.

Janet gave Daniel another smile and squeezed his arm before walking off.

Daniel gave the room a quick look, frowning in confusion that Jonas wasn't there.

Then he got a strange buzzing feeling up his spine. His skin felt chilled and a strange hollow sensation filled his stomach.

Daniel turned around and looked up at the window of the observation room. Jonas was standing behind it and staring right at Daniel, his eyes fixed and his face drawn.

Daniel stared back. He remembered his own death. He remembered Jack, Teal'c and Sam at his beside offering words that sadly at the time meant nothing because he was going to die and nothing was going to change that.

He also remembered a ghost standing behind glass. He was sure it was imagined. Jonas watching him die. Watching him ascend, alone in the observation room. He was sure it hadn't really happened. But seeing him there now made him wonder. It made him ache.

The Only Way and And Then You Say Hey