Come Due by Alaya (M)

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Fandom: SUPERNATURAL
Pairing: none; Sam-centric gen
Length: 10,300 words
Author on LJ: utsusemia
Author Website: fanfic tag
Why this must be read:

In which Sam and Dean hunt a rogue angel. Things don't go as planned. The Winchesters deal as best they can.

You're twenty four and Dean has been out of hell for a month. Seeing him every morning is like a gift, and the first few times you catch him running from nightmares to the bathroom, retching his guts, you figure that it's natural. Hey, it was hell after all, not a fucking Club Med vacation and he's going to have some trouble dealing. But he's alive and with you again and neither of you even had to sell your souls to do it.

Except, there's Ruby, and the "psychic shit" and the demon blood. There's the nightmares that don't stop, but get worse. There's the secrets-- yours and his. There's your brother right beside you; there's your brother miles away. The longing gets deeper. His nightmares get worse.

He tells you about Alastair. About what pain really means, and what it feels like to break.

I tried, you want to say. I tried everything I could, and nothing worked. But you can see it in his eyes: you didn't try hard enough. You just failed, all over again.

After that, you suck Ruby's blood like a fucking vampire, and you don't care. This time you won't fail. This time you'll save him. You'll save the world.

Absolutely stunning, heartbreaking look at Sam and what led him to make the decisions he made in season 4, with a fantastic use of second person POV.

Come Due by utsusemia

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