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crack_van2011-10-31 06:43 pm
mf_luder_xf) wrote in crack_van2011-10-31 06:43 pm
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A Hole in the World by bauble (PG-13)
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Dean/Cas
Length: 6,666
Author on LJ:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
bauble
Author Website: Master Fic List
This fic slays me every time. It's a haunting form of what might have happened had Dean said yes to Michael. And it's so painful to see what Dean and Castiel might have had cut short. But what's so tragic is the way Castiel chooses to coach and prepare Michael while searching for Dean, and Michael's heartbreaking naivete as well as understanding that shows through in the end.
"Castiel." It is Dean's voice, but it is not him. Castiel shudders and falls back a step when Dean stands with preternatural grace. Dean’s hand is at Castiel’s throat in an instant. "Tell me why I should not strike you down where you stand."
Castiel swallows against the pressure of Dean’s thumb and forefinger on his windpipe. He could let Michael destroy him now, utterly, and perhaps this time God would not save him. Perhaps he had served his fated role in bringing Dean to Michael, but a part of Castiel resists dying still.
It is not because Castiel fears death—indeed, a part of him would welcome the chance to lay down his burdens and rest in the arms of his Lord. Rather, it is something else--a longing Castiel could not name until Dean seized him in his final embrace, a longing that Castiel now recognizes has always been there, patiently awaiting the spark to ignite a flame that would consume everything in its path.
Now the fire roars, and Castiel knows the longing for what it is, and knows that it will chain him to this existence so long as Dean’s body lives—and perhaps, even beyond that. "Because I can help you."
Dean’s lip curls. “You dare suggest that I would need the assistance of one such as yourself? A renegade, a traitor--a disgrace?”
Castiel falls to his knees as the force of Dean’s arm presses him down. It is foolish to hope when he knows in a dim, abstract way how powerful Michael is. His holy fury is beyond comprehension, beyond description, and cannot help but destroy all it touches. It is foolish to hope, and yet Castiel cannot stop himself from believing that perhaps, if he can only survive, he might one day see Dean again.
“No,” Castiel whispers. “I am nothing, and you have no need of me, but I--I do not wish to die like this.”
“And what makes you think I should care what you want?” Dean’s face is impossibly distant, cold.
“Nothing,” Castiel says. “But I wish to die in God’s service, and to help you before I do.”
Dean--no, Michael---stares at Castiel and a faint hum of power probes the back of Castiel’s mind, intrusive and very nearly painful. "You may prove useful, defiant one.” Michael drops his hand from Castiel’s throat, and Castiel falls onto the ground. “I will suffer your continuing existence, for now."
A Hole in the World
Pairing: Dean/Cas
Length: 6,666
Author on LJ:
bauble Author Website: Master Fic List
This fic slays me every time. It's a haunting form of what might have happened had Dean said yes to Michael. And it's so painful to see what Dean and Castiel might have had cut short. But what's so tragic is the way Castiel chooses to coach and prepare Michael while searching for Dean, and Michael's heartbreaking naivete as well as understanding that shows through in the end.
"Castiel." It is Dean's voice, but it is not him. Castiel shudders and falls back a step when Dean stands with preternatural grace. Dean’s hand is at Castiel’s throat in an instant. "Tell me why I should not strike you down where you stand."
Castiel swallows against the pressure of Dean’s thumb and forefinger on his windpipe. He could let Michael destroy him now, utterly, and perhaps this time God would not save him. Perhaps he had served his fated role in bringing Dean to Michael, but a part of Castiel resists dying still.
It is not because Castiel fears death—indeed, a part of him would welcome the chance to lay down his burdens and rest in the arms of his Lord. Rather, it is something else--a longing Castiel could not name until Dean seized him in his final embrace, a longing that Castiel now recognizes has always been there, patiently awaiting the spark to ignite a flame that would consume everything in its path.
Now the fire roars, and Castiel knows the longing for what it is, and knows that it will chain him to this existence so long as Dean’s body lives—and perhaps, even beyond that. "Because I can help you."
Dean’s lip curls. “You dare suggest that I would need the assistance of one such as yourself? A renegade, a traitor--a disgrace?”
Castiel falls to his knees as the force of Dean’s arm presses him down. It is foolish to hope when he knows in a dim, abstract way how powerful Michael is. His holy fury is beyond comprehension, beyond description, and cannot help but destroy all it touches. It is foolish to hope, and yet Castiel cannot stop himself from believing that perhaps, if he can only survive, he might one day see Dean again.
“No,” Castiel whispers. “I am nothing, and you have no need of me, but I--I do not wish to die like this.”
“And what makes you think I should care what you want?” Dean’s face is impossibly distant, cold.
“Nothing,” Castiel says. “But I wish to die in God’s service, and to help you before I do.”
Dean--no, Michael---stares at Castiel and a faint hum of power probes the back of Castiel’s mind, intrusive and very nearly painful. "You may prove useful, defiant one.” Michael drops his hand from Castiel’s throat, and Castiel falls onto the ground. “I will suffer your continuing existence, for now."
A Hole in the World