crack_van | Swallowing Razor Blades by InLoveWithNight (R)

Fandom:ANGEL THE SERIES
Pairing: Fred
Author on LJ:

inlovewithnight
Author Website: Exaggeration and Blank Verse
Why this must be read:

This is Fred and not Fred, which if you know Fred at all you'll know is par for the course. Am I being senseless? It's Fred-- it's allowed. Banana, hatstand, klein, dimensional vortex, pi, taco! I like this ficlet immensely because it AUs for the purpose of exploring a character's essential voice. It strips everything away and leaves her babbling her sense-no-sense. This never happened. I'm not even sure *what* happens. The whole story makes no godamm sense at all. Except for it does because it's so Fred it hurts (superstring). I can't explain it. Read it. Here's an excerpt:

Vampires? I remember vampires. Someone hated vampires...someone taught me to kill them. And he loved me.

"And your little games won't interfere with my project?" Beautiful Lilah, arms folded across her chest, tossing her hair, so clever, so brilliant, so terribly strong.

Strong...the other girl was strong...I remember her name, Cordelia! Cordelia is strong. Cordelia is Lilah-strong, but without the knives and wires and shamans. Cordelia, help me...

"Of course not," the man was smiling still, and in the sharp vertical lines of his teeth she read his name again. Gavin. "Your project comes straight from the Partners, Lilah, I'd never interfere with that. She doesn't need her memories to do what you need her for. She doesn't need her mind at all."

My mind? I lost it once and just now found it again, I'd like to keep it if I could, please.

Swallowing Razor Blades