crack_van | Ones and Zeros, by Chained Dove (PG)

Fandom: GETBACKERS
Pairing: Kagami/Makubex
Author on LJ:

chaineddove
Author's Website: Fade to Zero
Why this must be read:

It'll draw you in slowly and carefully until you suddenly realize how far from normalacy you are, and tug at your heartstrings. One major factor of this fic's excellence is wonderfully well-characterized stream of conciousness; it gets right inside the mind of a character whose mind is not quite the normal shape and difficult to evoke well. The other is ... sheer creepiness. Reading something like this makes it easy to understand why Makubex chose the path he did.

And did I mention it's creepy as all get out?

But he didn’t dream about Ginji’s eyes or anything else to do with Ginji except his absence. His hatred for Ginji was nearly as deep as his love for him, that strangely difficult to quantify longing he had felt sometimes looking up at him. Ginji — friend, ruler, enigma. Traitor. He didn’t dream, but he did remember and wonder, sometimes, what would have happened if things were just a little bit different, if he had been just a little bit quicker, if just once when he was being held in the warm cocoon of Ginji’s arms he could have brought himself just a little closer and explained that Raitei was everyone’s savior but he, Ginji, had been the one to save Makubex.

Ones and Zeros