crack_van | The Last Time by alannaofdoom (NC-17)

Fandom: THE O.C.
Pairing: Ryan/Donnie, mention of Ryan/Seth
Author on LJ:

alannaofdooom
Author Website: none
Why this must be read: "The Last Time" is a glimpse into where Ryan's life could be five years from now. Unfortunately, in keeping with this week's dark theme, it's not the happiest of fics but it's realistic.

Ryan hasn't talked to or seen the Cohens in three years because he believes that people won't get hurt when he's not around. While visiting Trey in jail, he runs into Donnie, of Crabshack and shooting Luke fame, who's just been released from jail. Ryan offers Donnie a ride home and thinks about his life, how he's gotten to this point. Some things happen between Ryan and Donnie at Donnie's welcome home party and Ryan stuggles to come to grips with it. He also tries to figure out whether or not he deserves to be happy. An excerpt:

And all that time, Donnie had been in the back of his mind, a reminder of who he really was – a scared, fucked up kid from Chino. Not good enough. Not ever. Just hoping maybe if he made everyone happy enough, kept them distracted, they wouldn't bother to really look at him, really see him.

Go, read and enjoy.

The Last Time