Fandom: THE PROFESSIONALS
Pairing: Bodie/Cowley
Length: Novel-length
Author on LJ: Not on LJ
Author Website: Carnall Enterprises, UnLtdWarnings: Death of a major character, rape, torture
Why this must be read:With this novel, I am glad to present a quite famous part of the "Pros" fanfiction heritage, to which access has been for a long time limited to the paper circuit domain and is now available in "Proslib" (the "Pros" library) with an easy to get membership. I think I can't do better than re-post here the introduction I was invited to write for Proslib at the time.
"Look Through My Eyes" by Jane Carnall is a very original, powerful and moving story that stirred a lot of discussion back then in 1991 and generated a whole variety of sequels (some of them Bodie/Doyle) gathered in a second zine, "A Simple Game".
It's a story centered on the Bodie/Cowley pairing but it doesn't belong to the "Fox and Wolf" universe. Based on perfectly plausible premises, developed to their extreme consequences, it's darker, harsher, grittier. And yet, there is also love, tenderness and passion, expressed with the dry, understated and efficient style that's peculiar to the author, and a deep, haunting sense of tragedy.
I can't honestly say you'll read it with bliss and feel like curling up with it on your couch with a box of chocolates. It's a difficult reading, hardly bearable at times. Even for the author; she said so in the afterwords, joking that the first proof-reader gave it up and "ran away, screaming in the night"! LTME is not for the meek and weak of heart....
I sincerely hope I'm not dissuading you from reading this novel! Sure, you won't find heart and flowers in it, but an authentic piece of good literature and keen psychology, well worth the necessary effort. There is a real suspense to the last page. The story's outcome doesn't solve everything but the sequels, including the author's, will answer the still pending questions (though in many different ways ) and in some cases even provide a happy ending.
In order to reassure those who could have been frightened by the warnings above, I must insist on the point that reading the author's sequel, "Turn Around", is necessary to a good understanding of the events exposed in the main text and should bring some, much needed, comfort to the excessive hurt of the first story. This sequel, with two others, is to be found in the same folder you'll have access to through the following link:
Look Through My EyesWhile you are at it, don't omit to read Karla Simon's sequel, "Look At Me Now", which - I think - provides the best outcome and the most satisfying explanation of the first story's mysterious ending.